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GAH. sorrrry kai wei, im too lazy and no time to post all the pictures. another day uhhh,                                         YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYE! ALINA CHIA , I FINALLY BET YOU IN THE GAME! AH HA! I TOLD YOU TO WATCH OUT ! :p HAHAHA, hmmm. Alicia told me that she prefers the old skin cos of the basketball pole. :/ i somehow prefers this skin, or tho the colour is rather pink and girly. BUT who cares! :p went AMK hub today, say im dumb or outdated, but it's my first time at AMK hub! anyways, met kai wei . was rather late, :p so we went took the mrt to AMK HUB, and and chatting , reached there, we walked and walked and chatted and chatted for hours . we went to the arcade, hoping to get the book? I SPENT 8 BUCKS LA, AND THE FREAKING MACHINE IS CHEATING LA. Or the arcade damn ass la, seriously la, i got freaking pissed. anyways, we want to go new york new york! but decided not, haha. we went pepper lunch instead, :D we purposely ate slowly , like some retards . to drag time, and finally , after BILLIONZILLIONWILLION hours. Our dear natalie finally arrived. kai wei and i spent dont know how many billionzillionwillion hours, just eating pepper lunch. haha, and seriously the green tea ice cream fron pepper lunch is , :/ the powder is freaking bitter ! so after a few mouthful of ice cream , i gave up. went to had snow ice instead, :/ i was freaking full lah! we camwhored like crazy retards and after that we went to nat's house's playground to remember our childhood days! ahaha, kidding! after that , we went nat's house. played MONOPLOY! :D camwhored , and saw my present that nat was giving to me! haahha, nat. you so do not know how to hide! after a while, kai wei and i left. we dropped at tiong bahru. she met her cousin and i bought Mos Burger for dinner. :P headed home! picturesss, the rest are with kai wei. will upload them when kai wei send them to me! for now, ENJOY! :P  my chicken pepper lunch! kaiwei's steak, and it's real ! not from some papr or whatever!We started cam-whoring :D only two, cos the rest are like :/ and major aare with our dear kai wei which is enjoying herself at some function :p   Wwith the marsmellow ? at nat's plac Cola Gummy! 7 hours of drills coming up , D: Imma freaking bored now lah! im trying out the way of charging my phone using the laptopp. Ehhh GUYS, go try this out! Big Girls dont cry, REMIX! by Fergie and Sean Kingston(: it's like , idontknow? Hmmm, picturess :D  Zemaine and I , we're like freaking retards lah! This is my birthday gift from Alina Chia! (: thanks even tho the colour is uhh, :/ The Mess ! The moo moo on my PINK tin :D And of course, this is the BLIND AUNTIE OF MINE. Auntie CAROLYN :D
Take a look at the mess we made, :D the night's getting COLDDD. okayzxzx, to clear some misunderstanding. 1stly, I like eeyore since i was reallly reallly young. I didnt copy anyone or something. 2ndly, i like spongebob. but not like reallly really love it as much as eeyore. the giant spongebob was just something i got to cuddle. So i hope that there wont be any misunderstandings, peace out :D it's back to hitting snails like a noob, (: something to entertain me during the hols, HOHOHO! went parkway parade, went shopping for my partyyyy! bought tons and tons of things! (: went serene after that, met Alina chia. WHOOO, SHE SAW SOMEONE UHH. :D hmmm, we talk about many random stuff. went to bought fries, and then went up to the kiddy thing. sat down and told about random stuff again :D hmmm, we went macs, i had apple pie and we shared a cup of green tea. after that, we went back to school. then , loither around outside school to look for alina's keychain plus to kill time. about an hour later, went to the bus stop. alina was trying to beat all my records in the game while i look at buses pass by me. and after zillionbillionwillion hours, Alicia and Rhondda finally came! so much of watching a movie, i totally had to missed it! D: prefect interview is not a very nice thing, yeap , and we went Bugis. walked around then went home luh. i tell you, the train is super duper pack. my eclair got squashed lah! D: not cool , so not cool. imagine eating squashed eclair, well, i just did. :/ anyways, thats not the point. yeap , so off i go to beating alina's high score! hmmm. im sitting here, facing the screen, tasting the pasta i cooked. and for Carolyn's info, I DID NOT BURN THE KITCHEN DOWN. uh, was looking thru some things. and they reminded me about the past memories i had . fun , sad, crazy, random and whatever memories. and then i started reflecting about my whole life. since young till now, 13. well, in another like what 1week . the first thing that came up to my mind was , my mum since young, due to my parent separation . Im super close to my mum, im like super glue with her and never lets her go. im scare of tons of things and always thinks that my mum will chase them away. and now that im older, i've overcome quite a lot of fears. and i guess thats the reason why im not as close to my mum now. it was just a year ago, where the innocent little me shares everything with my mum even if i did something very terrible and im suppose to keep as a lie but whenever i see my mum, everything just spills out. and now, a year has passed. there are like tons and tons of things that my mum doesnt know and i dont know about her. and i guess it's time i start doing something good for her. This whole year, i was suppose to work hard to express But look at my stinking results, not even close! and i not only did not word hard, i spent like tons and tons of money. yeap , and now that im reflecting. i better find something to make my mummy-o proud of the awesome the second thing that came up was, friends. friends, to me, friends are important but it all comes down to a point on: Is this person a true friend? Is friend worth your concern and everything? Will this friend hear you out when you're down , angry, irritated , annoyed, whatever. i have friends like, AliciaAlina , Rhondda. Four of us , like together most of time. We went thru ups and downs. are we still gonna be close? the new year is coming, will we break ? so much things coming thru , and we're still holding on but will this friendship just break one day? Claudia, Kai wei , nat and fifi. Royal queens uh. so called, going out buddies. you're are like one of my bestest new friends i've made ever since i came smss. or tho most of the time Claudia and I are always hanging out with our SMPS friends. thanks for the secret kept, :D hopefully we can still keep the Royals going, Carol , Raeann, Mushroom! Aren't we glad that we're all in squad two? always going out together after gb, watching tons of movies and throwing popcorn towards the screen! ♥ always standing together during drills, hoping that we go to the same commander. and having those crazy, random, weird , fun and happy times! Yay to us, WHOO. lastly , smps friends. Felicia, Melia, Kymberly ,Chloe and more la uh. I'll do like what felicia did one day, then i'll name all . hmm, or tho we're all mixed classes but we still talk like as if we're the bestest buds uh! :D uh oh, and of course church friends. or tho i've just join the youth like this year. yeah but everyone is all so nice and friendlyyyyy uh, so, Yeap, the weird, happy,crazy,random, ego, whatever etc etc. friends i have in my life! the third yet the more important thing is, My life and my relationship with God. my life, what exactly is my life? Do i just go to school , spent money like it's free , sleep, slack and everything? my future? never thought of anything yet, manzxz, i need a life. LIKE FREAKING FUN LIFE, just before it's gonna be my turn to take O or tho it's like in another 3-4 years? haha so yeap, and My relationship with God, it's working. Im not putting God first, God is like , i dont know which part of my heart. Is it true that i only look for God whenever i need help ? so much things that God has blessed me , do i just thank him and say bye bye? and then wait for the next time , i need help ? it's time i do something uhh, Lastly , my studies. Normal Ad, yeah it's nothing bad. but it takes a longer way for me to reach uni? if i even can make it there . am i gonna work hard for next year? so much more things to reflect, i seriously dont know what to do. yes, i should be letting go now. I can no longer hold on , i have to let go. it's really obvious shown , I dont wanna hold on to a friendship that hurts me. It would just get worse. hmmmm. school's over, 2 whole month of holidays. :D well , other than drill practise. today went sgp. Carol and i werent really feeling that good. after that, we went to meet Zemaine and went vivo. bought tickets to , Lars and the real girl. then went Carls for lunchhhhhh, walked around, and the movie was starting. we bought the MEGA COMBO la! they gave us this HUGEEEEEEEEEE tin of popcorn. and a giant drink for just 10 bucks. The movie was, ? after that, walked around. and went church , hmmm. after church, went back to VIVO! uhhh, today's like 'Vivo-day out' hahaha we went White Dog cafe, i had baked rice, baked rice was nice something different from the other baked rices i tried. :D and i had Mangolicious. it was best. thank you Abriel for treating us to some Al Carte, :D after that, took mrt. yeap, home. now going around asking people for confirmation. Hey guys, if i have not approach you . Please come tell me if you can or cannot make it for the party. Thanks, :D and to those that keep apologising, no need. you're coming, great not coming, then oh well. so yeap, dont keep apologise. I dont blame you or anything. wl, damn pissed la. so annoyed by my mum la. :/ manzxzxz, LOADS of disappointment going on. hmmm, my party is like a failure. everyone's on their holiday and stuffff, yeap. and i forgot about MISSION TRIP. AH. GAH. BAHH. anyways, the major disppontment is myyyy RESULTS. aahhhhhhhhhhhh. EXAMS results, ): hmmm, my LAP and IH are like DAMN disappointing i meant like, anyways, i should be able to clear all subjects. maybe not for.. IH? and i swear yknow , I'LL NEVER physic(sp?) MR GOH IS. LIKE. ____ lap is horrrrribleeeeeee, Mrs boey . Very nice of her to have a baby just before our exams took her leave, cos her first time being pregnant blah blah . and she never tells us anything about marking. AND NOW, 1/7 , even Dawn ,the best english writer from our class JUST PASSED BORDER LINE LA. i was like, wth . anyways, i owe lao shi 4.50 :D vivo-ed today after school , with raeann and carol SAW A PUPPY LA, 1800 :/ why not they just take my life, nvm. SAW PSP. gahhhhh, 328. I SWEAR , I DO ANYTHING TO GET IT . hahha, prolly start begging and nagging at my mum till she goes CRAZZZY. so yeap, hmmm. sigh, i dont think my heart has anymore space for disappointment. YAYYYYYYYO, exams are over! had last paper on thurs, after last paper, went mac-ed with carol, raeann& mushroooom! had gb after that, preparation for sgp. squad two's in charge of games yo, ♥ yeah after that, went orchard with carol, marilyn, raeann & lilian. we were like the few idiots that were craving for town yet had cca to attend straight after last paper! what a bother! oh well, the cca meeting was cool. anyways, i dropped ahead of them to meet kai wei, claudia,fifi and nat, hmmm. we went far east, walked around, goof around. bought a couple of things, i went to cine to meet carol, raeann,marilyn and lilian. walked around, then we went to watch MrWoodcork! Woodcork was just , HILAROUS and stupid. HAHA, more movies to go! HOHOHO. yeap, and hohoho went wild wilddddd wet yesterdaaaaay, my mum picked kai wei and claudia up, then we went to plaza sing, walked around. then met natalie, after that, we went cathay. play around, then we had lunch at billy bombers. hmmm , we made our way down to downtown east! changed into our shirts and fbts, and yeah. we made friends with the lifeguards , haha. yeap and we were the last to left other than the people working there . :D pictures,
Im practically going CRAZYY. Exams are like , AHHHHHH. i mug, i mug till late at night like 12 plus then the next day i lack of energy to take the exam and i got freaking eye bags. i mean like AHHHHHHHHH. Science has driven me bonkers, IH AND MATHS? WHOA, i'll go insane. When's thurs coming? THURS, LAST PAPER. i've gotta do it, ESTHER, just do your besssst. just maths paper 1&2 and IH whole freaking paper. oh please, just send me to the mental hospital. I dont wanna retain , yo. AH, father lord, help me gimme a calm heart to face this exam, forgive for slacking like thru the whole year and regret only at this point of time. Im sorry im doing last min revision and everything but please Lord. Guide me thru this step of exams and help to at least get a pass. Thank you father, Amen! Hmmm. my mind set is on migration. that's it. my mummy's ok, im ok. so now, it's just we check out the place we wanna migrate and approval. thats it, before that, i swear im gonna go high on vodka with everyone. :D sometimes certain things dont mean to belong to you, and it's the fact that i dont belong here.  uhh, yeah.group shot yesterday, hmmmm. Talk about friends uhh, true friends dont come that easily but fake friends comes naturally. some friends just act all the way la, and true friends really stand by you. anyways, blogging with fe, Alicia♥, Uhhh, i metl her first. she's way way way better than alina. :D knew her since primary 2! haha, but i only like got close with her since primary 4. she's awesome, im awesome. we're all awesome. hahaha, im lame, she's lamer and alina's the lamest! thanks for all the time , and for her lame/cold jokes. and the times she laughed like a crazy retard. ILY! FELICIA♥, hey 7 years pal, yeap , or though we only were close since last year but we trust each other uhhh, you're welcome and thank you for entertaining me with your lameness online . haaha, and entertaining each other and going all crazy over neopets. yeah , sometimes we go lame but lame in a cool wayyy uh. i dont remember my neopets account either.. ? haha, love you many. RHONNDA♥, Hey there, hmmm. I knew you thru ..? i dont remember. but we knew each other since primary.. 6 uh? thanks for trusting me with your secrets and thanks for KEEPING my secrets haha. take good care of yourself and sorry for the times when i werent in a good mood and kinda threw my tanturn. and all the time we irritate each other uhhh. had happy times , :D KAIWEI♥, AUNTIE! hahaha, you ai mei person. had happy times with you too uhhh, thanks for accompanying me to tiong . and thanks for trusting me and for keeping what we've talked about. i mean like , every single thing we talk about la. hope we can go to the place we wanna go on thurs uh? study dates were all fun and times when we purposely irritates each other. last one to go! ALINA CHIA JING YI♥, you this kukumalu, looks like my mum's right. the only way we can communicate is thru argueing and fighting. haha, enjoyed the fights tho. thanks for being there all a along, and after we have fought, the next min we're back again. really enjoyed those times and irritating each other with _____; haha, so yeap, that should be it, :D thanks for the memories even tho they werent so great; Uhhhh, Happy Birthday Ash, jon and Jas(:
HOHOHO. my mum bought a milk bottle for me. EHHHHHHHH, i was just joking with her okay. who knew that she would really go buy it :p anywayss, i guess your answer would be to continue to be friend uhhh? okay, they say that you're still rather pissed. so just chill k, i mean if you really think i've left you out, then i apologise uh. hmmm. Rhondda, get well soon uhh, :D music was rather confusing but yet fun , perform week after next ? i guess so, Oh btw, Happy birthday LAURAAA Im pooor now, D: i want more money, i swear it's shopping after exams. anyways, it kind of predicted that i wont go express. just hope i wont retain , :D okay, just pass english , art and D&T just pass those and im off to sec 2. :DDD Raffles hospital is nice and cool , :D if i get into an accident, i would wanna go Raffles. i dont mind getting injured just to go into hospital. haha. and again I pretend I’m ok hello hello. uhmm, im considering .. about going to_____ or not and what to do about _____. school was, ? detention was fun , queensway was fun too. anyways, some thing happened today and , look. after 4 years of friendship, if you think just becos we are friends for 4 years straight;you can control me. then , im sorry but you are wrong. you dont have rights, who the hell do you think you are, i must tell you where im going and ask if you wanna go along including toilet? LIKE WTH LA, you think what. my mum dont even bother where i go , as long as im safe la. so, who do you think you are? want me to do soul searching, i've done mine. what about you ? thats all i've gotta say. YOU go think about it, if giving up the friendship you would be happy then okay, but lemme warn you that you have to gotta give me time. however i do wish that our friendship can continue and we stil can be best friends like last time, music, shaking teh eggs! :D hahaha, only my group understands. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyo, im feeling all excited into getting the jersey. :D anyways, school was as usual :/ whole class's getting freaking detention la. D: and i dont even know why. :/ anywayssss, went queensway ordered our jerseyssss. haha, we actually wanted to put 'Friends are forever, boys are whatever.' but we didnt, cos it didnt match our jerseys. :D HOHOHO. anyways, very lazy to type. byeeeeebyeee, BOOOOHOO. i typed this reaallly really long post but pooof it disappeared. okay to be fair to blogger, it's not blogger's fault. anyways, happy childreeeen day and happy birthday to cherielee&andrew. school today is :/ mr goh was being ):< he punished me , so i was at the back sms-ing people. :D haha, just now in hte car i saw the mini beatle(sp?) so i was telling my mum, I: eh, the beatle infront very nice leh M: so? I: nvm, oh yeah uhm my friend got me the prices for tuition. M: oh, so what are the prices I: tells her everything blah, then eh yknow ah they provide tuition till JC2 yknow! M: serious? I: yeah, then i was thinking thru. actually hor, Poly is waaaay cooler than JC leh. somemore can drive to school eh, M: yah, so you confirm want to go Poly rightttt.( she PREFERS me to go JC) I: hehe :p eh , then i can go get drving license and you can buy me the mini beatle! M: HA. HA. HA. you think i print money is it. I: eh serious la, if you have money will you buy for me? M: buy! damn cooool la, if she really buys for me, i'll drive around everydaaaay. HAHAHAHA. WASTE PETROL! :D anyways, okay, in the previous long post that just disappeared had all my thoughts la, so i dont wish to type them out now. hmmmm. not in the best of mood now, dont bother talking me before i just yell at you thru the technology. byebye, maybe it's meant that ill be alone, and that i just dont belong to where yall are. so just like, LEAVE IT. |
