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so sleep alone tonight
GBB♥14 05/11/1994 SMPS/SMSS GirlsBrigade It's rather hard to earn my trust now. Why do you always attract me? |
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Oh yes, i forgot prefects do randomly look at people's blog. Hahaha. Anyways, I intend to change my blog and remove some links lah. Uhhhh, is it just me ? Or everyone cant tooo. I cant seem to change my blogskin. It's like there are so many many many many nice skins but I cant use them all. No one seems to have a problem except me. :/ Urgh, Eating now is like a chore to me. My wisdom teeth is growing so it's rather annoying and pain to chew. Add on with my bad cough , I find talking worse. :/ Science today was awesome, I didnt had to stand outside the staff room for an hour cos Miss Ng was in a good mood and she said: To me, not doing homework is a bad thing. Forgetting to bring things is not as bad as not doing but I also find forgetting to bring things bad. Thats why I want to punish the three of you. But yesterday, I let those that did not do their work go so i have to let you go too. Understand? Hahaha, cos we didnt bring fork and spoon so she wanted to punish us. Oh oh oh , home econs. We didnt cook cos the water supply now is like chalky. Yes, eeeew right. Miss Yati's damn nice, :D At COM labbbbbbbbbbbb now, bored. Watching out, making sure Miss Chan doesnt looks over. Science paper today was screwed, well not as screwed as yesterday's chinese. But doood. Urgh, today is just boring. Omgeeeeez! My mummy is the best of the best you can ever have! :P Although I did so much mistakes and gave tons & tons of trouble& hurts to her, she actually bought me to a shopping trip today and agreed to bring me to go buy more! More clothes yo! AND SHE FRIGGIN WANTS TO BUY SKINNIES FOR HERSELF. Okay, maybe it isnt really a "wow" news to you but it is to me. Hahaha! :D Oh please, i got no idea why Im such a badddddddddd daughter when I have such a mummy! (: Hahaha, i didnt even know why I even had suicidal thought of leaving her at my lowest point of time. Chinese class sucked a lot today, my whole test paper was friggin empty. Well, maybe with just like some answer but it's MCQ and I had put them randomly. I was very tired so kinda slept. Eeeeeek, the thought of failing kinds of make me ): Oh well, it's expected. Urgh, you can say Im being ego again. But I kind of feel like a different person now. More sensible, and i kind of realised Im like turning rather girly-er. Gah, I dont know. But i seriously feel different, but in what way? I got no idea. Rawr, i burnt my thumb on sat and it's like this bubble thing. And apparently, my nails acciendentally broke it and there's literally a hole on my right thumb. ): you can say Im being proud and arrogant about my mummy, cos i kind of agree. Well, blogging seems rather boring nowadays. Oh well, you can say that A series of my life has just ended and soon a new series would be starting. Im rather thankful for Christina and Jex for caring, talking to me, oh and carol too. Carol, i think you make a good counselor when you grow up. (: And Jas, for praying and those that cared. Sorry, im rather lazy to type them all out. so yeap, hmm. I had a good yet rather screwed talk with my mum. Yeap, screwed in the sense as i was like crying and tearing the whole talk so everything was like choky and stumbled. And like i said, this time round everything is finally cleared. Urgh, there's school tomorrow. The school repaired the water pipes in time, rawr. The whole school should just go back to the spot and jump there and Im sure the water pipe will bursted again! and all over, we'll have early dismissal. (: Alright, lets stop dreaming. It says there on the school webbie: Dear parents, Due to a burst underground waterpipe, the school has to cut off its water supply on Friday 25 th January 2008. As it is not possible to carry out normal school operations under the circumstances, school is dismissed at 8.30am. We regret the inconvenience caused. School will resume on Monday, 28 January 2008 . Hohoho! Today is just pure awesome! Apparently, i forgot to bring my boots. RAWR. I was friggin worried luh, after that during Devotion. I was praying, praying for a mircale. :D And it happened lah! The whole school was dismissed at 8.30 and all CCAs cancel, other than Badminton. (: Mircale yo! Okay, our school's underground water pipe BURSTED! Resulting to no WATER SUPPLY. Hence, no school. Oh well, just hope that on mon. The pipe would not be repaired yet. :D Give us a week break or so, (: Anyways, Im over at AliciaAlina's place again, yeap. Life seems boring, Im prolly lifeless. Oh well, i need a life. Hey! Well, there's nothing much to update in my life. Now, life is like friggin screwed. Many things happening, so much worries, concerns and troubles. RAWR, life can never get any cooler. ): Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night [Chorus:] He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, The kind of flawless I wish I could be She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause [Repeat Chorus] So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light I'll put his picture down and maybe Get some sleep tonight He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do He's the time taken up, but there's never enough And he's all that I need to fall into.. Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see. Teardrops on my guitar, <3 Anyways, Today was first day of work. It was really fun, other than getting slammed at. Yeap, i got my skinnies! Mer, Brenda and I got all black. HAHAHA! Hmm, we had prata for dinner. Yeap yeap, nothing much luh. ;DD School tomorrow, Oh how I wish I fall sick right now. I'll reply luh, there's no reason and it doesnt matter whether I exists or not alright. I wanted to post just now, apparently i fell asleep. :P Anyways, this is for sat post yeah. Hmm, yesterday. I met Carol at redhill, and we went on to vivo. Hmm, reached there. We went to Cheers, she bought her curry puff and i tried their 'slurpee', which totally sucks to the max man. Like I had one sip and I threw it away, yeah. After that, we went shopping. Supposely to find something for Carol to wear for new year, however OUR DEAR MISS CAROLYN is too fussy. Yeah, We walked around quite a bit. O: then we went to starbucks to 'studying'. And again! Our dear Miss Carolyn Chia didnt bring her homework or anything to study. Carol, Mr Andrew Anthony will give you a 'wow' for that. Hahaha! We walked around a little here and there. Then she left for church, I left for church too. Im so sorry Carol about what happened! But you totally missed your chance on saying that I am a retard, too bad! :P Anyways, I went church. Met Jex and we went over for lunch at subway. Well, we shared a foot long oven baked breast chicken was it? i think yes, anyways yah. He treated me so now i owe him a meal. Hahaha, ;S anyways, we went back to church office after lunch. Where the two of us went to the preschool room to do the newsletter. After that, I went level 7 to put the newsletter. Okay, apparently I went up and down. Hahaha, then had cell. ' Last Cell session'. After that, we had the prayer session then service. Yeap, I came straight home after that. I didnt really felt that well. So yeap, thats my saturday. We'll see if I have to start work today(sunday i meant if you're confused), have to go sms mer. Hmm, if there isnt. Imma gonna ask my mummy to bring me out! If she's free, :D Hahaha! I was on the phone with alina and she was telling me about a lot people asking why i didnt go to school today, she says she became my manager. HAHAHA! Hmm, I didnt feel too well this morning luh. So mummy asked me to continue sleeping, ;DDD anywoos, Im feeling much much better now. Shit, my laptop's running out of batt. Bye! Heyhey! Im at AliciaAlina place again! Yeah dood, thats something about only child. you get lonely and you wouldnt want to go home tho your laptop and all is at home. Well, coming here has internet too! :D Yeah anywoos, we're being guai and trying to finish the IH work. Which apparently, we aint really concentrate. Well, okay. Only me, alina's being guai and really doing it. Shhh, Im trying to watch out that she doesnt see me blogging. ;DDDD She's too into her music, i doubt so would bother about me. Anywoos, just keep a watch out. Im trying to type as fast as i can anyways. Hee, well. I bought my new file, dawn did an awesomee drawing for my file cover. AWESOMEEE. And alright, I'll clear things up. I AM NOT ANGRY WITH ______. Just that sometimes, it just occurs to me that she's frigging rude and extra. And I dont hate her lah okay, I just dont really like the sight of her uhh. No offence kz, D: Okay anywoos, I shall be good and go do my work. Lol. Melia finds my smackdown vs raw PSP game gay. HAHAHA. It was damn hilarious luh. We were getting all high and retarded in the mrt playing that game. It went like, "OMG. I kicked his P.", " The guys has boobs!" aye and all the retarded stuff. HAHAHA. Oh oh oh, and there was this guy. He was standing beside us, then I went like, GAH. He kicked my character's P. And he stared at us lah. IT WAS LIKE DAMN HILARIOUS LAH. Today and PART of friday was one of my happy days! :D Today , I went out with Melia, Brenda and Sotong! Okay, sotong is tricia. I met brenda at 1130 at orchard. Then we went to lucky plaza to meet mer. And we went up to her place, Mer went to shower while Brenda and I were busy CROSSING the newspaper lah. Everything was out, Job Hunting today wasnt really cool. After that, we had their Indo instant noodles. It was quite nice, hee. After lunch, we went outside and played BUBBLES. Doood, it was damn fun. Happy pictures are with mer, which is gonna be very long long long before imma gonna get the pictures. Our dear sotong was so early, we met her at orchard mrt and went over to Novena. We're like pigs lah today, immediately we reached there. MER and Brenda bought Moshi while Tricia and I bought cup corn. After that, we went KFC. and ate again! We're just PIGS lah! We had cheese fries and drink. After that, we walked around. We went level two, where we went to ANIMAL! There is shirt, awesome. Guess what, it's friggin 59 bucks. Oh oh oh, and this hat. 32 BUCKS. Freak luh, ): After that, we went to this hiking stuff shop. They were hiring people, so we tried. Hee, the boss told us that we werent very suitable yet. Cos like, if the customers asked us question we wont be able to answer. He gave us an example like the easiest one, is was like : If Im going to Beijing to hike today, what do you suggest me to wear? We totally stumbled luh, so it was out. But he told us, maybe two three years down the road we can go back and find him uhh. :D Then we went to World of sports, they told us to contact their HQ. Hahaha, after that we went to Delifrance. Where we filled this application form, :) After that, we went Mingles. We filled the application form and had a little chat with the Manager. After talking for like 15 mins or so, we realised that MER and Brenda cant be employed cos they're not PRs. That sucks, so if they were to accept. Only sotong and I. Rawr, sucks lah. After that, we went BK. I had sundae pie! Tricia had to go, so then MER, Brenda and I went over to VIVOcity! :D SO YES, on our way to Vivo. We were playing my psp, that was went we were going all high and laughing loudly like crazy people. And doood, I AM NOT AGGRESSIVE. Rawr brenda, rawr. Hmm, when we reached VIVO. We started our pig-ness again! we went candy empire, bought ultra mini marshmellows and marshmellow cream. After that, we went starbucks. Bought my drink and danish, mer bought her Cookie Monster! <3 We went up to the grass patch, sat there and had our marshmellow feast! I told you we were pigs! :D Oh yes, we camwhored a lot. LIKE A LOT. Then after our feast, we went to Ezone. Played , then we went to that Pet shop which i happen to forget the name. :p we saw this cute chinhuahua but it was CRYING luh! Yes, seriously crying! And and and i saw this really cute yorkshire terrier. Mer was saying that she's gonna round people out to chip in for a dog for my birthday. Seriously, don't. It's really expensive okay. Brenda and Mer is talking about their dogs gonna mate, :/ anywoos, we went to daiso after that. Camwhored a lot, we wanted to buy a lot of things since it was so cheap. After that, we went out empty handed. Hee, :D so yes, we walked around. then went to 7-eleven to buy our all time favourite, instant nooodles yo! Pigs in action again! After that, we walked around and we played hide and seek with Brendaboo! :D After that, we went window shopping. Trust me, window shopping is aint cool. It's ain't cool, yo. Laughing a lot today, had lots of fun. Thanks Mer, Brenda and Sotong! :D Oh yes, about friday. NOT COOL. MY OWN VERY BLOOD RELATED MOTHER THAT GAVE BIRTH TO ME GANGED UP WITH ALINA AND ALICIA CHIA AGAINST ME. Rawr man , rawr. Not cool. It was very fun tho i got bullied. Oh yes, got my new spec. Hee, okay okay. Shall not elaborate. I needa go. ;DDDD Hmmm, today a girl called Rachel. Im not sure of her surname luh, she was born premature. She was like, 35cm long and 1.05kg when she's born lah. Like what the crap right, then something happened and she lost her eyesight. She's quite a poor thing, but she told her us that tho she didnt had friends in school but she's happy girl. She said that happiness comes from God and not from friends, family or school. Yeah, and I thought what she said was quite true. She sings very well! tho it was rather HIGH, but eh. Doood. a twelve years old girl publishing two albums. WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? Im quite glad she came today. ;D Yeah, Im happy! I finally finished all my hols homework. Yes, including chinese. I finally can relax. This week's like mostly free time cos all our teachers are on their camp. Hee, oh crappy patty. I gottta go. Bye! Oh dooooooooooood. Im using my mum's new laptop. It's damn awesome lah, :D anywoos, im reallly really happy! Firstly, my momma bought me two pairs of converse shoes. Or tho I want Vans but they only had size 10 and 11 which is like what, HUGGGGGEEE. Oh oh oh, my momma bought me games for my PSP! ;DDD Secondly, fancy today was awesome! Well, or tho I did a few mistakes. Hee. Thirdly, Im no longer stress about homework. And I've decided to trying going guai. (:P) Eh, I can do it alright. Fourthly, Imm starting to open up to my mommma! yeap, so things are going great so far. Lastly, Immma gonna try to get my momma to get my a new bag, new phone and more PSP games! :PP Im getting out of hand. Of course, not all at one go. Prolly, buy some stuff like my bag myself. New month! Dooood, next month is CNY! Red packets! I heard lots of WOOOO-s! (: Dooooooooooooooooood. NOT COOOOOL. My mummy's laptop is way cool-er than mine. RAWR rawr rawr, It's too late to apologize. First week schoool, everything's cool. Or tho I wish school didnt even start, sigh. Form teacher's Mrs Shum. She's okay lah, slightly better than Boey. Well, Maths and Lit teacher's cool and awesome, (: Well, so far lah. New uniform looks nice, considering I may get a set. Soon, Immma gonna go shopping for school shoes! A bit to late but oh well. Hmm, today's terrible. I was cried like what the crap, lots of times. Somehow, This year makes me panicky and scared. Im afraid of not doing homework. Or tho I started my hols homework like on the 1st of jan? But it's cool, everything's fine. Well, other CHINESE. Everything's cool. Not much of panicky now, science's settled. English is almost done, chineseeee. I guess I'll give a skip. Dooode, i dont understand a single word in that book. How do you expect me to write 4 friggin book reviews :/ But eh, this year Im not in the last chinese class! Im 'upgraded' to a better class. Heee, :P Apparently, I heard my teacher ain't good. So I guess my grades would prolly drop down again, as in last year had Miss Carol Soh. So it's like, quite scary and stuff. So NOT THAAAAT slacky. But this year, i doubt so. CCA fair tomorrow, (: (: (: yknow, I was thinking. Does it really matters if Im there? Does it really matters whether I talk to yall or not? Does it really matters if I no longer would be joining yall? Does it really matters this, does it really matters that.. There were so many does it matters in my mind, Im thinking of ____________. But, How am I gonna raise the matter up to my mum? Do I really wanna go? Im like stuck in the middle, at times, I feel like going. Then again, I dont feel like going. I told some people, I dont like the lost and alone scary feeling. I bet nobody likes that feeling, but somehow it just happens. Happens on me, and seriously I no longer gonna care what yall think about me. Cos no matter what, it's the same. So yah, at times I do feel happy. But a couple of times, I just feel so screwed, invisible and lost. Is it suppose to be that way? Im really confused now. Everything seems fine for everyone, just me. Why is it like, Im the only one troubled. Everyone seems happy on this earth. Friends all over, family, relatives, EVERYONE, even strangers all seem so happy. Why is it that I seem to be the only one feel so screwed and confused. Someone explain? Okay guys, I hope this is not gonna start a fight with between yall. But I think yall should chill alright, yes. 29th it is an important date. We got the jersey and all , went thru some arguement with others just becos of this RQ. But seeing yall, the way yall say just becos we didnt go for one 29th date. It's really screwed lah, I mean if yall really treat each other as RQ.Then why are we like that ? If we're really RQ, yall should like understand each other right. Okay, yes I admit I totally forgot. Cos for me, it's the hols. I dont take note of the dates. But since we forgot, yall can just like give us a ring. I'll say that, on that 29th. I was at home, alright. I got stuck at home because my mom took my keys. Then I went to church, alright. Now the question is, Are we still united? Like we're all going different class and all. And just one month, SOME of us forgot about it. Lets just let Nature take it course. For now, it's new year. Lets all not bear anymore grudges. Happy New year all! Imma gonna have my first sleep of the year :P anywoos, my mommma was NICEEE. She gave me monehhh! Hee, so yeap. I went PS to shop MYSELF, thanks to SOME PERSON. Hahaha. Everywhere was friggin crowded lah, bought my Cotton On shirts and ripcurl walllet. (: I was suppose to go buy more but I decided to go shop with Carol later on today. Apparently, my mum was being unreasonable kz. Just now, she asked me to go shop with carol later then when I reached home. After my shower, she told me straight away NOT to go. What the crap. Sorry Carol, maybe another time. Anywoos, after shopping, withdrawing monehh and stuff. I went over to City hall. I wanted to take the shuttle bus butthen i changed my mind. So I walked there, quite okay. Reached Suntec, went to the toliet then went NYDC. Saw ash, and we went in. Nat and sebs was there. Waited, and everyone started coming. There were like, ash nat sebs jeremy abriel josh raina tash esthertee mok rachel me christina jon gouw and maween. We ordered and stuff, I had Destiny's Child! Hahaha. After dinner, Christina and I shared a Times Square Brownie Freeeeze. It was damn good, after everything and all. Felicia came.We all walked to Esplande, which was SUPER UTLRA crowded. We met Pk and walked to the bridge there where Queues were super long, well for the ladies lah. The gents didnt had any Queue :/ After walking around, we all settled down at this 'bar' at The waterboat there. Yeap, I sat there and stoned and listened to music till like what 8 mins before 12. And everyone was counting down and stufff. And, it's new year! We all exchanged our first hugs and wishes of the year. Yeh, the fireworks were awesome! Pretttty too, yeap. Mrt-ed back after that, (: Anywoos, My mum's being weird. And somehow, I cant help to suspect it's totally becos of _____ ___. Seriously, only _____ ___ would be like that. And she has always been advicing my mum like since her daughter made her real pissed? :/ Thats her daughter lah, none of my business. What the crap lah, |