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so sleep alone tonight
GBB♥14 05/11/1994 SMPS/SMSS GirlsBrigade It's rather hard to earn my trust now. Why do you always attract me? |
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I screwed my cheena paper once again! :/ I woke up at 4am today, hahaha. The friggin alarm clock, for the past few days it didnt worked. And this morning, it rang at 4am and the sound totally scared the shit out of me. HAHA. srsly, the tone was like wth ? so yeah, i woke up. And decided to play, :D Before I left house, I hear raindrops. The minute I looked outside, it was raining. :/ and right after i got my umbrella, it started rainning heavier. :/ how wonderful ehz. mrt-ed, and my WHOLE friggin skirt was wet. :/ saw twinz, 186-ed. AlinaChia ate the wrong medicine and she was acting so weirdly. Paper 1, was screwed. srsly screwed, i didnt know what to write about. Omg. so anyboos, recess-ed. Alina totally scared me manz, she didnt eat recess. She slept thru the whole recess and she was all weirded up. And after recess when I piggy-backed her, she felt as if she was gonna faint. :/ but anyboos, Tulasi tried to show us her break dancing. And she failed, and hurted herself. That was when Alina started to be herself. HAHA. asshole luhs, never eat the right medication :P so yeap, had paper two. HAHA, i had like a lot of extra time. I wrote the lyrics out for Tonight. I doodled, I wrote, I SLEEP, I talked to MrsShum. HAHHA. I did so many things in between the paper. Heh. Im serious! I ended like 45 mins early. so i had time to do so many things and mrs shum actually talked to me too. HAHA, we were just chatting about things. that was totally not relavant. and we were laughing like crazy, DURING THE EXAM. she never scold. HAHA. after school, TP-ed. We had lunch at KFC, then it was RachelMing's turn to act weirdly. But her case was different, don't let the matter bother you yeah ? (: slowly, we played, joked, talked , crapped. RachelMing felt better. But that was towards the end, haha. After that, 980-ed with Twinz & Tulasi. Twinz & I alighted at KK hospital. We went to visit my mum, and we found that she was gone. HAHA. then I realised she was at Delifrance with Auntie Jac. HAHA, went down to look for them. We talked, laughed, crapped. Then, Auntie Jac left. Twinz & I sent mummy back to her ward. & i went to twinz's place. after twinz's place, went to church. Met Alvin at the traffic light, ahahha. We met Jas and we waited for PQ to come. (: After that, we went to get flowers! Hhaha, Alvin didnt dare to hold the flowers! hahah, :D oh well, KK-ed. We met my mum & the rest at the Kopitiam. Xiuhua came down too from her duty, haha. Her uniform's uber kutez, haha. then about 9 plus.. Jas, Alvin, XiuHua & PQ sent my mum back to her ward. And XiuHua decided to show us her workplace. hahah, which is the children ward next tower. HAHA, it's pretty cool. after that, alvin & I went to get MrBean! (: & Greg came to pick Jas together with Alvin & I. Greg sent us home, thanks! (: The jokes about all the schools and stuffz were uber funny. HAHA. so anyboos, im tired. Like very, heh. so nights. (: thanks guys, you guys made my day. esp twinz, for accompanying me (: Kay, this is for DesireeSu kz! Be honoured luhs! Hahaha. No lah, thanks good friend! <3 for helping me print. You're awesomez, :D And for advertising, Heh. ANYONE WHO NEEDS TO PRINT, GO FIND DESIREE. SHE SAYS SHE'S REALLY WILLING TO HELP. hahahah. :D And Im serious, cause she's serious. HAHA. today was great! I managed to wake up, wahahaha. Met twinz at the mrt, then school-ed. Art & Maths was the best. Heh. Me, Alina, Cheeko & Cassandra. Best, :D Heh, after school. 48-ed with Twinz. Wahlau, the stupid bus so crowded again. Why does all the bus that goes to KK is so friggin crowded. :/ so anyboos, when it reached KK. I TELL YOU , wahlau. By the time I made it to the door, the driver wanted to drive off already. I immediately pressed the bell, and everyone looked again luhs. So :/ anyboos, my mummy's fine ! her OP went well. (: so yeap, heh. I shall stop blogging noww. I need to do my stuffz. (: Manz, fear DID take over. But no fear, I really thank God. I mean, fear took over. I cried but ( dont tell my mum about it.) yeah, but after praying. I feel much better! It's amazing how God works and helps in my life. HAHAH. feeling all so holy. hahaha. But its true, I mean now my fear is gone. Still a tiny weeny bit worried about tomorrow and the rest of the days. But, Im sure God would help. (: so yes, school today was okay. Lessons were fine, I listened kz. Other than english, besides the EOY is over. Heh. DOT was best, I fell asleep. as in, Miss Kaur didnt come. So, there wasnt any teacher in the class. So, sleeping time ! (: heh. Woke up about three times in between cause of fifie & joy's singing. hahah. yeap, :D after school, went to shaw with twins & rhondda. Pretty fun , :D the best thing, we didnt study. well anyboos, we didnt intend to study. Heh. Eh, we just wanted to go for lunch. yeah, so anyways. after lunch, went over to twinz place. Watched some shows, and I left at about 5plus? which is SO SO SO wrong. I took 980, it wasnt crowded. But as it went, more and more people come up the bus ? and it became super crowded. Thank God I was sitting down, but i was like counting. Cause i didnt know how to get here, so i was like every bus stop that 980 was suppose to go to, i used my fingers. so at the tenth finger, i pressed the bell. Heh. and guess whut, I WAS THE ONLY FRIGGIN PERSON THAT ALIGHTED. hahaha, everyone was looking at me. esp when it was so crowded. HAHA. oh wells, so visited mum. she seems fine, she doesnt seem to worried about her OP. she even joked with me, and she said she's kind of looking forward to it. wow, but oh well. tomorrow morning's her OP, yeap. so if you can, please pray for her ! :D I guess i better go get ready to sleep nowz, dont wanna be sleeping during class tomorrow. Heh. :D ILY mum, dont worry about me. :D Fear's taking over. Shit shit shit, tomorrow's the day. Wahlau, the thing I hate the most is that I will cry. Hopefully I wont. :/ Anyboos, today was the first paper for EOY. english, :/ kind of screwed it, but i should be able to pass. One thing I love about exams, school ends friggin early. HAHAHA. Go gbb, 1 paper down only! Don't worry about living alone! Sigh, sometimes I feel like a loser man. :/ Btw, Norwegian Recycling is coooolzxz to the max. HAHAH, so check it out. Mashups! (: This world is crazy, and mysterious. Humans are scary, and mysterious too. Oh well. It's been awhile since I updated. And whattheheck, EOYS are here. I have my friggin paper on tues! fast eh, but im still not very panicky yet. and that wont do! :/ anyboos, today was rather boringzxz. other than the performance thing. as in, okay. here goes, i went for the Soka thing cause of twins performance as well as their parents. HAHHA, OMG. you all should have seen Alina's hair. Too bad I was busy laughing that i forgot to take picturezxz, hahaha! omg. but no worries, amanda got some. I'll try to get from her. WAHAHHAz. so yeah, mummy decided to be nice ( surprisingly). she sent me there, tried to call Uncle but I guess he was too busy. I forgot they were all performing, prollly cant come to pick me. So, being VERY smart I called Amanda! hahahaah! so their aunt came and pick me, and we went to sit. the whole performance started and stuffzxz, the kids dance where Angelina, and the two boys were performing in were pretty kute. The dance by twins and the whole dancing group were pretty gooodz , hahha. I swear, ALINA CHIA WAS UBER ENTHU. unlike in school, when we have dancing kind of thing. she's so NOT enthu. HAHAHA. srsly, you all have to check out her hair. spike until like don't know whut. so then it was the skit, twins' dad was pretty funny acting as the doctor. hahha, the choir was WOW. Pretty, interesting. HAHAHA, amanda says the actions are too obscene. HAHA. so yeah, thats about the performance. from what i can remember, heh. (: after that, mummy came to pick me again. YET AGAIN, SURPRISELY. then, we went to visit my relatives and cousins. Wow, my little young cousins have grown A LOT. and my mummy's mean. she says that they're hyper active cause they kept dancing and kept making us watch them dancing. hahahha. after that, went to visit my gonggong. Lots of visitation ehzxz, hahah. yeap, and had dinner with him. Omg i tell you! I promised to treat him to dinner on his birthday right. But i friggin realised, ONLY TODAY, that i have friggin EOYs on that day. so the dinner would prolly be cancelled. :/ my mummy told him about it, ): I feel bad, i promised him and then comes the stupid EOYS. oh well, had dinner with him. Hopefully he enjoyed himself. Heh. Kz, I gotta go! oh whattheheck, home alone days are coming. Mummy's going for OP, and I'll have to take care of myself when she's away. and when she's back, i gotta take care of myself and HER. oh well, God please help. <3 Removed my cbox, for some reasons. I'll put it up when I feel like. Don't worry, it's me. Not anyone else, (: yeap! Hmmm, lets see. I just got a hair cut, and it's screwed again. And now, more people agree ! Now most people are on my side against my mum, wahahah. I mean seriously, everytime I step into that friggin hair saloon and let the hairdresser cut my hair. I'll just cry luhs. No kid, I can literally cry. But it's cool now, my mum promised she'll never bring me back there. (: Now, my dear hair. PLEASE GROWWWW. then you wont look that screwed up. :/ School today was awesomeeeee manz, (: MissWang didnt come, MrTeng didnt come. Like whooo ! 6 periods straight, free period ! Okay, I know we were suppose to study but yeahs. (: MissWang's three periods was spent decorating my profile paper thingz, with Cheeko and Cass. Alina was , as usual , sleeping pigz ! Hahah. The two out of three PE periods, Mrteng's, were spent with Melia, Rako & Krystle. HAHAHA, uber funny! We were talking about random stuff , and our parents ! Like our parents' random moments, act cool moments, and everything ! Hahaha. the last period of PE, was like mixed around. Cass, Cheeko and Alina finally stopped sleeping so we all kind of talked together. All 7 of us. Then suddenly, the relief teacher started counting down like, FIVE! FOUR! and the whole class got a shocked, she made all of us go back to our seats. so we went back, surprisely the class kept quiet. So, she gave us extra time for recess ! (: CommonTest was crap! I did those I knew how to do and left blanks, whoopsie :P I fell asleep, wrong but shiok manz ! (: I woke up when time was up! awesome, maths was :/ MrLim didnt even teach, he gave us the answer sheet to the worksheet. And Big new yo, I DID THE FRIGGIN PAPER FOR MY REVISION. AND CRAP, i dont know how to do some. :/ Dear Lord, help me to pass my Mensuration paper tomorrow. For this paper, I srsly MUGGED ! (: Lunch was :/ all of us were like running away from the table. I dont wanna elaborate, :/ PW, boring. Chinese , awesome ! Hahahah ! I played the game ' hei bai pei ' with Rachel , Cheeko & Alina. They all say I cheat, which I so did not. RAWRRRRR. then played the slapping game with alina, wahlau ! my hand turned so red kz! We compared our hands, and my 'redness' friggin won lah. HAHAHA. (: after school was crap, and stupidddd. Mum came to pick us up, and brought me & twinz to Aunty Nancy's place. What the heck, talked so much crap and embarrassing about me -.- so yes, I gotta sleep nowz. Otherwise, you would see my sleeping in class tomorrow. Oh yah, My mum signed the progress report ! And she isnt as angry as I expect, awesomeeee ! (: Went back to school today, had fun during IH class. Well, I hope so. Anyboos, I finally got my WALL-EEE toy ! (: Like omg, rachel ming says Im like a little girl. But so not, after much persuasion, I finally got it ! Like omg people ! you know my mum actually said that i cannot have anything related to wall-E until nov( my birthday). But today, I got it ! (: And it's from my mum. LIKE WOAH ! yes yes, so anyboos. THREE pictures from LJ. And I'll be nice and put only 2 unglam shots of my ' VERY NICE' Retard no. One who STILL owes me dewberry. (: Way over-dued pictures. (: the LJ pictures are not really clear cause they're too big for my blogskin. I was thinking, wouldn't it be great if time just turns back. I would say, alone is the only word in my dictionary. Maybe, its just me. I cant click with everyone. Maybe just for a little period, but not for long. And please, dont presume you understand me and what im thinking. Because honestly, no one has ever heard what Im thinking and feeling about. Even my mum. Lets just say, Im on one planet and everyone's on earth. I visit earth and have fun with everyone. But at the end of the day, I'll have to go back. Go back to that planet that only has one living thing, which is me. Lets make it a thank you post, for twinz. I mean, thanks you guys. You guys always try to never make me feel alone, and teach me in my work and always help me. Like so much, so just many many thanks. Thanks for being there for me, offering whatever you guys can. And I'll just say, thank you. I love you guys, and I'll be there for you guys too. That is, if I can. I maybe ego, but I somewhat feel. My egoness is going down. Okay, Im being nice. And decided to open my blog again, for those secretive faithful readers. Like woah, I didnt knew until I closed and locked my blog that I actually have faithful readers coming here. HAHA. so yes, for the sake of myself. That I dont need to keep giving people permission, hahah. so here it is, unlocked. Oh well. Anyways, today was SANA course. My morning started off quite hectic, with loads of messages. Like, I have Retard 1 & 2 late. People asking me about things, and yeah a lot of different kinds of messages. I left house at about 730, and was sms-ing Zemaine on my way to Sengkang. She was reaching Serangoon when I was two stops away. So, we wanted to meet at Serangoon. So I thought of alighting, but when I stood at the door waiting for the train to stop. I saw Zemaine at the door! HAHA, so yeap. I didnt alight, she boarded. We sat all the way to SengKang. And apparently, it wasnt that far afterall. We reached Sengkang, like uber early. We were the first, so we went to Seven-Eleven. Zemaine bought her chocolates & we saw GB girls coming. so we met up with them, then Miss Ng came. Everyone started coming in, then we went over to the Sana House thing. And we reached late/ just right? :DDD They made us sat in rows of 7, and yeap. We were made to sit with other UG groups. No that bad, I made new friends. (: But I can only remember the NPCC girl called Yinyin who sat on my right, and the BB boy called Gabriel who sat on my left. & The NPCC boy called Noel, I think. The GB girl, whoopies. I forgot your name, sorry. :X so yeap, had the course through. Lunch at BK was horrible, we were all swallowing down our food. Stuffing ourselves like some idiots. & Throwing away our cups of coke which is uber full and not even drank a quad. Had the role play thing, was cool. Kind of like a bonding/makingfriends thing with those that sat with you. Yeap, :D The videos were uber boring. Yinyin was like playing with her handphone, Gabriel was like sniffing, with his flu. & everyone was like in a complete silence. Oh well. The prize giving was pretty shitty, the MCs were like dragging time. I srsly wanted to throw my shoes, but Im just joking. It was meant to be entertainment for us, I guess. But Im sorry, but i didnt really enjoyed it. so yes. :D ohyes, MissNg friggin made me the Company IC. & it's uber stupid. I had to like head count all the time & make sure I had no lost sheep. I hated doing all this kind of thing. Why can I be a sheep too, and let someone else be the head count-er. HAHA. Oh wells, :D Gbb's rather confused but is happy that she made new friends. _______ is not bad, pretty hot, but ______ likes him. Omg ! Well, Im happy we're friends. I used to believe people are nice creatures. I used to believe you are the one that I could turn to. I used to believe those people were true friends. I used to believe you guys were different than those outside. But I was wrong , totally wrong. I used to believe, you guys would realised my goodness. I used to believe being nice is something very important in life. I used to believe giving in would help. I used to believe running away isnt a solution. But I was wrong , totally wrong. I used to believe that ignoring the negative and look to the positive was true. I used to believe that being happy just with friends is the true happiness. I used to believe fun with friends never ends. I used to believe I could rely on people. But I was wrong , utterly wrong. Now , Im taught by this world that I CAN ONLY RELY ON MY OWN SELF AND GOD. |
